I really started thinking about what the next couple months look like for me and I'm thinking I probably won't be back to skating until January. Prove me wrong knee! Prove. Me. Wrong.

I've got another five weeks in the bionic brace and then a 70% chance of surgery. After thinking about it and talking to other people, I really think surgery is the best route. Whether they use cadaver parts in me is up for debate. The knee surgeon seemed to think this was the best route, where as the physical therapist said there was a higher failure rate - Come on guys, get it together! Don't tell me contradicting info please!!

So five weeks and then I find out if I need surgery. I'm sure I'm not just going to have surgery that week, so I'm gonna have to wait for surgery, and then I'm going to have to heal, build up strength and make my triumphant return. I'll be lucky if I can skate in January.

I started physical therapy this week. At first I was like this sucks, but now after a few days I'm really starting to like the exercises. It's nice to move around again and feel like I'm doing something with my knee. It's starting to pull me out of gimp mode. I'm thinking about swimming next week. I'm prone to chubbiness, so it's important I don't stay docile for too long or I'll spread out ;)

Not skating just sucks all around. I really want to get my hands dirty with coaching but I don't want to step on any toes and sorta feel like it's a hard transition for a skater to make. I'm trying to help where I can, but it's just not the same. I really want to prove that I can be a good coach - that means hard work on my end to make the coaching committee, the coaches and my team put trust and responsibility in my hands. I officially feel like an outsider having to prove myself all over again and that's just a crappy feeling.

It's not just the derby and my team that I miss. I miss just being able to skate. I love roller skating. There is nothing in the world that is better then rolling around on eight wheels. I had just gotten two new sets of wheels too - damn. At least I know they are waiting for me.

I guess all I can do is wait and be patient. I'll be here for my team in whatever capacity I can and just spend as much time as possible researching drills, plays and watching footage.

At least I have this wedding nonsense to keep me distracted.


Hugs and Bruises,

Raven

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